Redeem: 30

It's funny how much I hear the idea that to be in love,
to fall in love, to agree to love is to get something, for yourself.
And if getting or ungetting you do not feel complete,
then the love itself has failed.

It's funny how once I thought this too,
though not if you had asked me.
But in these five years I have learned.
To agree to love is to agree to say:
No matter what it means for me. Unfailing. You.

And yet, today, I'm walking all up in my crazy.
And it's making me think about how it would be
really lovely if you were to see it, and to pray.

For me.

I remember a night we sat in my car
and you said this Kindgom-Purpose thing
and my unwelcome tears said back to you:
I'm wounded and afraid, and I just don't understand.

And you answered, but not to me.
It took me a moment but I realized soon enough:
you were praying about it, for me.

And there have been many days since that day
where I have wondered what you need
and what your Kingdom-Purpose is,
and I have said: Teach me. How to pray.

For you.

And it just seems to me that if I am for you
and you are for me and together we are for the Lord,
then unfailing we will find ourselves.

[redeem, verb: to free from what distresses or harms; to release from blame or debt; to regain possession or recover ownership; 

to convert, restore, atone; to save]