Ease: 1

The truth be told,
I have perceived so much rejection
over these swollen years,
that I am often fighting to not reject myself for you,
every time I see you.

It's gotten better, but still;
I have battled a lot of fear.

Yesterday when you called me back
[so soon, so helpfully]
my breath caught in my throat,
fearful of what you think.

But I listened to you.
And I responded to you.
And I found in myself a subtle
powerful shift.

I want this
--and I commit this--
to be easy.

Fear must leave its place.

[ease, verb: make (something unpleasant, painful, or intense) 
less serious or severe; move carefully, gradually, or gently; 
ease, noun: absence of difficulty or effort ]